It's Half-past Redemption.

It's half-past redemption and it's so damn hard.

Nevertheless

Mmm been listening to the songs from these guys (they're called Nevertheless) lately. I'd say they're a secular christian band and their songs are pretty sound.

And this is for that special someone who might not even see this lol.



What if the fad burns out?
What if we're left without
Anyone to call our own?
You've got it figured out
If ever your in doubt
Never have to feel alone

People they come and people they go.
I could be wrong, but,
There's one thing I know
It's a longshot, baby,
But someday both of us will die
So I was thinking, maybe,
I could be your semi-perfect guy.
You don't know me, baby,
But I was hopin' we could try
For a longshot, you and I.

What if we take a chance,
What if we break your plans
And let me sweep you off your feet
You said you hate romance,
But I'm a persistent man
And I want you here with me

People they come and people they go.
I could be wrong, but,
There's one thing I know
It's a longshot, baby,
But someday both of us will die
So I was thinking, maybe,
I could be your semi-perfect guy.
You don't know me, baby,
But I was hopin' we could try
For a longshot, you and I.

I've been prayin' all my life
For love that's true,
But I never thought I'd get a girl like you.
O can't you see
Heaven sent you to me. (i lol'ed @ this line. really. it's super cheesy.)

It's a longshot, baby,
But someday both of us will die
So I was thinking, maybe,
I could be your semi-perfect guy.
You don't know me, baby.
But I was hopin' we could try
For a longshot, you and I.

Rest.

Somebody

Somebody please kick the idealist out of meeeee.

If I Don't Come Back...

Tell my mom i love her hahahahahahahhahaha. That's what those soldiers in movies always say before going off somewhere isn't it?

I've got less than 12 hours left and mmm all i can say is that i'm really excited at what God's gonna do! Ha looking at my 7th Jan post, this trip's gonna be an answered prayer (or rather resolution?) and i'm tremendously grateful for this opportunity. Throughout the months i've seen God's hands at work paving the way for the trip. Gonna list em here:

• Keeping my Industrial Attachment Program's cash intact. (heh. thank God i've got nothing to spend on)
• NS enlistment date falling on September.
• Permission from Dad. ( 180 degrees from an absolute no! Praise God!)
• New Tribes Mission camp, which provoked my thoughts about my life and missions. ( Didn't want to go in the first place but somehow got to go thanks to Deb!)
• Protection from lots of spiritual attacks, haha from driving scares to suicidal thoughts, and whatever.

Yea man! God's been so faithful and I've just got this really awesome encounter last night after being felt led to read Jesus' crucifixion. I just broke down somehow as i confessed my imperfections and unworthiness. Heh and God just showed me this vision of every single imperfection nailed to the cross. Whoa really uplifting and thankful for that.

Now with that said, it's time to go by faith! Faith in that God is gonna do something awesome over there both in the our hearts and others. Do pray for the team if you have got 20 seconds to spare =D

And They Shouted.

"Crucify Him!"

Here I Am, Lord Send Me.

"Woe is me, for I am ruined!
Because I am a man of unclean lips,
And I live among a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts."

Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had taken from the altar with tongs. He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sins is forgiven."

Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here I am. Lord send me!". (Isaiah 6:4a-8)

I'm far from perfect. I have issues that I have to deal with, struggles I have to go through and obstacles I need to overcome. But praise be to the Lord our God, our giver of grace, our well of strength, our fortress of love that keeps me going.

I'm cleansed. I found Him to be faithful and righteous to forgive me for my sins and iniquities. I know that there'd be a day that I'll have to stand before Him, fearing not for the things I've done because I know I've been forgiven, but what about the things that I should have done but did not?

I'm called. Not in dreams nor fancy visions, no loud booming voice nor clouds that suddenly form words. It's nothing mystical. It's just how much you believe what God says in His Word, "Go and make disciples of all nations and baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe what I have commanded you and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

I'm here. Send me. For all He has done, I'm willing to go. This life I have don't belong to me no more, I've lost my rights to plan out my life the way I want it to be. I don't know if I'd fail Him in the end but at least I would've tried.

"So here I am, Lord send me to the imperfect, that they may know that You have reconciled them to Yourself by the blood of Your Son just as it has been written in Your perfect Gospel."

(and here's a really meaningful song that i've heard.)