Worth it.

Had a really awesome time at the camp hosted by New Tribes Missions. God never ceases to amaze and i'm really thankful for this "second chance" to attend this camp. I've got to learn and experience lotsa stuff during the camp and most importantly, to hear Him speak.

I'm challenged. This "Big Picture" Camp turns out to be a big challenge. I had to re-look at my life and question myself, how committed am i to His call to go and make disciples of all nations. Oh, how many wrong opinions i've held about what missions is and God's true heartbeat!

Whose life is it anyway? Is it mine or God's? If it's God's then do i still have the right to plan out my life? Do i still have the right to fulfill my own dreams and aspirations? Do i still have the right to do what i like and am comfortable with?

Overtime we just forget who we really belong to. It'd be a great big no to the above questions if we know that we've been purchased by the precious blood of Christ. Yeah, I know it's heavy stuff. When i heard that during the camp i felt as if someone tied a boulder to my heart and i just want to dieeeeeeeee please.

I want to follow Jesus, all the way. It's gonna be hard, it's gonna be painful to really say "Thine will be done" but it's gonna be worth it.