Time to set my desires right.

It's time for me to set my desires right. If i want to spend time with God and still continue to do a good job in school work, something has just gotta go. I stepped down from NCC, it's time is start throwing all my games away, TV will have to cease existence soon.

It's time for me to set my desires right. If i want to begin spending more time with God, something of a desire must be set in my mind. Revival's gotta be my desire. Revival in God's people, Revival in Singapore, Revival in the youth generation, Revival around the world.

It's really time for me to set my desires right. No time to waste anymore!

Rend your hearts not your garments.

Great time at Campus Day of Prayer yesterday. The message by Rev Victor set things at a serious note. "Do you love Jesus?" I'm sure we all do. But what does John 15:10 say? "If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love." Yea we're all good at our outward expressions to God. Raising our hands to worship, dancing to praise, shouting, cheering and all that stuff. But what goes on in our hearts? Let's just say that i'm more determined to have a closer relationship with Jesus after that sermon. I dont wanna be a half-baked Christian anymore.

Well it's quite a nice fellowship and all. I got to come in touch with other God lovers and pray together. Though i felt that prayer times were a lil short. However it's still good to pray with someone you've just met. I was so encouraged by the chinese Christians although they're not really good with english, but they still prayed in such a simplicity that just kinda moved me.

Revival. Revival. Revival. This word keeps coming back to me. Everything i do ever since the Heidi Baker's Conference just gotta relate to revival. I read about revival, i pray about revival, i fast for revival, i think what's gonna happen at a revival. However that still small voice just kept saying revival's gotta start in His children's heart. I'm glad i'm part of that. Theres just so much that God has called us to be as His agents in this dying world. I guess most of the time we've been struggling with ourselves. Issues, sins, pointless discussions, aimless thoughts, disobedience, stubbornness, putting on acts, wearing masks.

Have human weakness and imperfection became a excuse for us? Whenever i speak to people about the wrong things we do, this answer pops up. Didnt God make us to be more than conquerors? Co-heirs of His kingdom, with authority over the evil one? I feel that my heart is in the process of being revived. I'm not gonna let this season pass, are you?

Who am i?

I am a young believer. There are many things i dont understand. I delight in God's truths and Words. I like to measure my life according to His Word. I love the way God transform me thru His Word. I love the way God transform others thru His Word. I love the way God orchestrate His plans thru fishermen, ex-pharisees, ordinary people like you and i. I love the way God loves me. I love the way God blesses me and draw me into Him. I love the way God teaches me thru every issue i deal with. I love the way God uses me to bring Him glory. I love the way God speaks to me. I love the way God moves me into tears. I love the way God forgives me. I love the way God looks into my heart.

Who is God truly to you?

I love to see people being saved. I love to hear the sinners' prayer being recited by the lost. I love to see people repenting of their sins and coming to God. I love people raising up their hands saying they want to accept Jesus as their Saviour. I love looking into people's life. I love to listen to people's life stories. I love how God changes people. I love how people hope in a God they just accepted. I love how people questions me about Christ. I love to hear of people's testimony of healings. I love to see people coming to know God. I love people, especially the lost.

Who are the lost to you?

I love worship. I love praying. I love fasting. I love interceding. I love kneeling down though sometimes i like to pray walking around. I love surrendering my life to Someone greater than i. I love spending time with God. I love to share God's good news with the lost. I love serenity and peace. I love to love my brothers and sisters in Christ just like how He loves me. I love listening to sermons. I love to share my testimonies with somebody. I love to share my burdens with somebody though i rather share with God. I love to comfort though i dont know how. I love to teach, nag, whatever to put people right with God. I love to use the Word to set people right with God. I love to share with people what God has taught me. I love to explain the Word to people. I love spiritual and godly discussions. I love to see people praying for one another. I love to hear what God has done in people's life. I love to build people up.

Who are the family of God to you?

B.O.M.G (1)

Was praying in the morning yesterday, lifegroup, myself and BOMG. The more i prayed about my BOMG the more i felt the urgency and need to share the Word again. So i decided to go to Toa Payoh after my lessons. Gotta love Wednesdays because i end school earliest that day. Even though i moved to Punggol my heart is still in Toa Payoh. It's a good place to find youths loitering around void decks and playing basketball and stuff like that. There's 3 neighbourhood schools around the area and that triples the chances of finding somebody around.

Yes so it all started in Toa Payoh park, a good quiet place to pray and seek God's Word. Earlier that day as i was praying on the bus asking if i should go and share the Word today because i felt that i should not be calling the shots, sharing the Word anyhow i like. Just like what He said on Sunday night "go.". I prayed in the park and asked for a message and "Love" came up. I threw 3 bookmarks into my Bible marking all the scriptures i need and off i went.

I went on to the first neighbourhood near First Toa Payoh Secondary School. Nobody around. Second neighbourhood near Beatty Secondary School. Nobody Around. Third neighbourhood near Whitley Secondary. Somebody. It was a group of 3 guys in uniform smoking. Probably due to the long time since i last shared the Word i became hesitant. In the end i walked off giving the excuse that they were from China and might not get the message. I dont know, but i just felt bad about it because afterall, they are still youths and i chose not to speak to them.

Felt like giving up but theres still one more place to go. The place where i shared the Word with a group of secondary school kids before. This time round there were Beatty Secondary school kids there and i saw 2 of my cadets there. I counted at least 12 and so i went to the nearby shop to buy drinks. When i came back they're already packing up and i was like =0. I quickly rushed in to save the remaining ones from going off. So yeap, i started off with the typical question that i like to ask. If you were to meet with an fatal accident today, where would you go? and somehow i always get the same cheeky (yet hopeful) answer everytime. Heaven. But still it's a good question to start off. Then, "Anyone can tell me what love is?". "Sex".

I wasn't surprised tho, all the influences around them just points them to that. I carried on with other questions such as BGRs and parental love. Finally i gave them the definition of love, 1Cor 13:4-8. Then John 3:16 diagram to give them a good idea of who Jesus is and finally Q&A. Usual debates on whether God is real or not and after all that i asked who wanted to accept Christ and 3 raised up their hands. Then "who accepted before but never had a relationship with Him and want to do so?" another 1 hand up. Out of 7, 3 accepted, 1 came back to God, 1 was already a Christian and 2 did not.

Praise the Lord!

Jesus the Bread of Life

I think i just wanna begin with this: "Every encounter with God leaves your life changed forever". Wonderful encounter with God during Heidi Baker's conference in Expo last night. Something just told me that I havta go no matter what when Jeremy told me about it and i'm glad i did. Great worship, sermon and altar call. The presence of God was so strongly manifested that i cant help but be sucked closer to God.

Even though i did not take down any sermon notes, i still remember all of it (almost all at least). I guess this just shows how much impact the sermon had on me. It's about "fresh bread from Heaven." I shan't type the whole thing here cause i already have a revision written in my journal. However i'll be really interested in sharing with the rest of POWER M&M about what was preached.

Tears kept flowing as i just wept and wept non-stop during her prayer. I cant even remember the last time i cried this much. It's been so long since i've been touched by the Holy Spirit in such a way as this. The presence of God was just so overwhelming.

In much of my late 2007 i was dealing with alot of condemnation and held down by issues regarding lust and i just simply don't understand why. But thank God as i learnt what grace truly is, i begin to find myself lifted out of my issues and condemnation. Yes, truly Jesus has given us the victory already and there is surely no defeat that the enemy can put you in. But did i have the faith to believe that? I'd say i have a weaving faith at first but as God spoke to me during the altar call, i felt a sense of super security and fearlessness that i'd ever fall into such defeat again.

Due to the condemnations i felt i thought that i'll never be clean enough to preach the Gospel to the burden of my generation. I began to lose sight of the burden God gave me. Now after weeks of victories, i'm really eager and excited to carry this burden once again. Once again God spoke to me about this and a resounding "GO" was heard. Yes, i want to shout of Your Good News once again to street kids, rejected youths, youths wearing masks, suicidal youths, every youth out there that needs You.

I want to share this bread with all the hungry out there.

2008.

Wow. It seems like i almost forgot i had this thing called blog. It's been busy and lazy over the past couple of months, well, busy during the couple weeks before holidays and then lazy during the holidays. But all's well!

Hmm it's 2008. Cant help but to look back at 2007 and all the stuff that happened....

2007 is probably the best year of my life because i've received Christ! It's been a really exciting and wonderful ride so far and i cant get enough of it! (well, how can you ever get bored when God's the driver?) It's been life-changing, life-fulfilling, life-enhancing, life-enlightening all at the same time!

The lifegroup gathering was great. There was sharing and we get to see how God worked in each and every one of our lives in 2007 and praise God for that! Then there was the worship and praise all the way before countdown! It was really fun praising God for all the things that He had done in our lives and yeap He deserves every part of it!

As for 2008. Hmm my resolutions are to be even more en-rooted into God's Word, to be more involved in people's lives and not forgetting, the Burden of My Generation! A new neighbourhood, a new environment but same burden! Yes, i really hope God would begin to open my eyes to the youths once again that i may shout of His Good News to them!