Revival Aint a Pretty Rainbow.

I've resolved that no matter what changes, no matter what happens, i'm still gonna cling on to the vision of revival. Sure thing, God aint all about revival, but isn't that His heart beat? Doesn't His heart go out for sinners and the great multitude out there that does not know Him?

Revival? It certainly ain't a trivial thing in the sight of GOD and we're called to pray, commissioned to preach the Good News and to stand in the gap. I really hope that nothing will blind us of this vision, if we cared more about our own souls for all our lives and let the people out there die without knowing who Jesus is, then surely our souls are not worthy to be saved in the first place.

Urgency. That's what i'm lacking and i'm ashamed. I'm thoroughly ashamed of my lack of prayer, lack of passion and lack of consistency. Praise be to God that He is ever so patient in reminders. I'm just gonna keep returning to the vision and letting Him equip me.

Honestly, i dont care if someone says i'm wrong. Someone may say someone's right and someone else wrong but there's only One that is right and that is God (for that, i dont even dare to say that my views are right! i dont want pride to cover the ears of my heart!).

As long as my heart is right and open before my King, i'm sure no one else can rob His desires and His calling for me. No man nor work of the devil can thwart the plans of God and who are we as men to pass judgments?

Why?

Just a sudden thought. Is Christianity really complex? How come we seem to keep struggling in a vicious cycle in our process of molding and sanctification?

The reason came quick, well it's because...

"We're trying to fit God into our lives, in our work, our schools, our camps, our situations."

But i guess God's too big to be in there. It isn't suppose to be like that right? Why all the frustration? Why all the anger? All the confusion and defeat? Seems like we're doing things wrong.

We're constantly asking and arguing with God about having things our way, trying to fit Him in the picture while He wants us to paint another one. "... yet not what I will, but what Thou wilt." Mark 14:36

And what happens then? no peace -> =( -> run after things of the world to fill the void -> come back to God crying -> God brings you back -> paints your own picture again and there you go, a cycle.

I remember when i was young, i was really bad at art. But my dad was an art person and he always held my hand when i'm learning to draw. How bout we start letting God hold our hands and paint the picture? (Instead of drawing a picture and feel bad about it because it's ugly and crushing it and redrawing another one and then feel it's ugly again.) I guess it's about letting go, and asking and abiding in His love.

It sounds easier said than done but who says it's that hard? With a God that loves and cares that sent His very Son to die for us, how can it be hard? It's sounds hard because we've tried and failed and hardened our hearts.

I'm learning to let go too. Praise God that He's so interested in our lives.

Will We Stand Here and Play While the Whole Generation Fades Away?

I'm feeling very sad but yet somehow hopeful. I've been back at school for 2 weeks now and i feel kind of dejected that i'm not praying enough or doing enough. Looking at the culture, the fashion, the language, i just feel that there's still so much to pray for and cry out for. But who am i fooling when i myself couldn't get down on my knees in the middle of the night to pray.

I feel like i'm too radical in some ways, probably it's the influx of sermons about holiness and purity and repentance and revivals and discipline. I'm moved by what i see and i've resolved that i wont sit by and do nothing while the generation fades away, unloved, untouched, unchanged by God. Oh how i wish i know of people that have this resolution that i may pray together with them. Honestly, i'm tired of stirring people up, only God can give the desire and yet if men wouldn't be in that state to want that desire then what's the point? I'm happy enough that they get to heaven and to love them with the love of God. I'll just leave the stirring to God from now onwards.

I guess many of us took up the mentality of thinking that God can do everything by His own. He could, in all His majesty and power, He could turn the world from their wicked ways and to serve Him. But what about men? Point me out if i am wrong. The bible is filled with men and women of God that are always in action. He would always work through man to proclaim and to act. I guess we'll never see the days of Acts again unless we start getting into action, to pray and to seek the face of God daily in our precious time with Him (which seems so little).

If we want God to move then we must first be moved. Like Wai Yin once said, God can wait for you to eventually come back to Him, but the generation CANNOT wait. I pray that God's grace be upon us to move us closer to Him first and that the Holy Spirit to move us to desire the things of God more than the things of the world.

"Therefore prepare you minds for ACTION, keep SOBER in spirit, fix your hope COMPLETELY on the GRACE to be brought to you at the REVELATION of JESUS CHRIST." 1Peter 1:13 (caps mine.)

Have you made your resolution?

Barrenness.

i wonder what's causing all this barrenness in our lives? Is it idols? Is it sin? Is it us leaving our first love? Lack of faith? Lack of surrender? Lack of love? Lack of works? Lack of wisdom? Lack of reverence of God? Lack of perseverance?

i dont know probably one or more of the above. But what i've learnt personally is that i've once held idols before God, computer games, school work, television. (And God just convicted my heart of eating into His time with me while blogging the previous sentence that i've got to turn it off and continue blogging the next day.) There were filthy sins that hindered the breakthru and always an lack of faith that God's love will still find me and pick me up. i guess each of us has his/her reasons but whatever that may be, we all ought to remember that we did not die on the cross for ourselves but Jesus did. So no point throwing a pity party over our lives but lets start looking at Jesus and His everlasting work on the cross.

Oh how we need a vision of the cross in our lives. A vision of the cross, a vision of God's love displayed. I'm not talking about any scene we saw in movies depicting Jesus on the cross, but a vision that God gives. Now you may say, "God never give me that vision wadd" or "Why God never give me this vision?". Why pin the fault on God? You know that you cant handle that vision. You know that your life wouldnt be the same anymore if you receive this vision. Your life won't belong to you and you can never live life the way you live it anymore. It'd be a life that is crucified with our Lord Jesus Christ.

But how glorious to live a life crucified! Only such lives can God get glory out of. Only such lives can God use to impact a dying generation. I want to live such a life for i have resolved that i do not want Jesus to die in vain ever in my life again.