If I Don't Come Back...

Tell my mom i love her hahahahahahahhahaha. That's what those soldiers in movies always say before going off somewhere isn't it?

I've got less than 12 hours left and mmm all i can say is that i'm really excited at what God's gonna do! Ha looking at my 7th Jan post, this trip's gonna be an answered prayer (or rather resolution?) and i'm tremendously grateful for this opportunity. Throughout the months i've seen God's hands at work paving the way for the trip. Gonna list em here:

• Keeping my Industrial Attachment Program's cash intact. (heh. thank God i've got nothing to spend on)
• NS enlistment date falling on September.
• Permission from Dad. ( 180 degrees from an absolute no! Praise God!)
• New Tribes Mission camp, which provoked my thoughts about my life and missions. ( Didn't want to go in the first place but somehow got to go thanks to Deb!)
• Protection from lots of spiritual attacks, haha from driving scares to suicidal thoughts, and whatever.

Yea man! God's been so faithful and I've just got this really awesome encounter last night after being felt led to read Jesus' crucifixion. I just broke down somehow as i confessed my imperfections and unworthiness. Heh and God just showed me this vision of every single imperfection nailed to the cross. Whoa really uplifting and thankful for that.

Now with that said, it's time to go by faith! Faith in that God is gonna do something awesome over there both in the our hearts and others. Do pray for the team if you have got 20 seconds to spare =D

And They Shouted.

"Crucify Him!"

Here I Am, Lord Send Me.

"Woe is me, for I am ruined!
Because I am a man of unclean lips,
And I live among a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts."

Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had taken from the altar with tongs. He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sins is forgiven."

Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here I am. Lord send me!". (Isaiah 6:4a-8)

I'm far from perfect. I have issues that I have to deal with, struggles I have to go through and obstacles I need to overcome. But praise be to the Lord our God, our giver of grace, our well of strength, our fortress of love that keeps me going.

I'm cleansed. I found Him to be faithful and righteous to forgive me for my sins and iniquities. I know that there'd be a day that I'll have to stand before Him, fearing not for the things I've done because I know I've been forgiven, but what about the things that I should have done but did not?

I'm called. Not in dreams nor fancy visions, no loud booming voice nor clouds that suddenly form words. It's nothing mystical. It's just how much you believe what God says in His Word, "Go and make disciples of all nations and baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe what I have commanded you and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

I'm here. Send me. For all He has done, I'm willing to go. This life I have don't belong to me no more, I've lost my rights to plan out my life the way I want it to be. I don't know if I'd fail Him in the end but at least I would've tried.

"So here I am, Lord send me to the imperfect, that they may know that You have reconciled them to Yourself by the blood of Your Son just as it has been written in Your perfect Gospel."

(and here's a really meaningful song that i've heard.)

MV

Lol stumbled upon this on youtube. Didn't know MercyMe's got MVs =O

Can the Joshua Generation Please Stand UP?

Observed today's extra-ordinary general meeting and i'm quite disappointed and discouraged. It seems to me that people treasured their own opinions and views over what God might actually have for us? Do people actually think and pray before they voice their views? Are they not at all afraid that they'd be held accountable to God on Judgment Day?

Is it just gonna be a new building? I'd rather we all get new hearts. If we moved there with such a lousy heart attitude, the new building would just be an shell, devoid of TRUE WORSHIPERS. Where's the heart of expectancy? If people would've prayed 30 seconds a day for the church, they would've felt that God is going to do something NEW and something really really really AWESOME. Or have we accepted our defeat and gotten comfortable in this pit which stinks of unbelief?

At the end of it, i thought to myself, we are the new generation, if the church would grow, it'd grow thru us. I wanna be a Joshua and lay hold on what God has in store for us!

GOD SHAKE US OUT OF OUR STAGNANCY!

Of Sin and Strongholds.

"Every time you yield to sin, you are passing a brick to satan to build his stronghold in your life."

Faith Simplified.

Learned something really important regarding faith.

Take a bank that has been established for 150 years by men of proven integrity and another just 3 days by 3 rich crooks. Which one would you put your money in? Which of these you put your money in, therein your faith lies.

You're at the side of a gushing river, there before you lies 2 bridges, one broken wooden one with lots of holes and termites and another, a solid concrete bridge complete with steel railings and lamp posts. Which one would you choose to walk on? Which of these you choose to walk on, therein your faith lies.

Faith isn't (and shouldn't be) churned out of me. It's simply based on the "options" (there's probably a better word since i have a limited vocabulary XD) that is before us. Which one would we deem reliable? God or ourselves?