Barrenness.

i wonder what's causing all this barrenness in our lives? Is it idols? Is it sin? Is it us leaving our first love? Lack of faith? Lack of surrender? Lack of love? Lack of works? Lack of wisdom? Lack of reverence of God? Lack of perseverance?

i dont know probably one or more of the above. But what i've learnt personally is that i've once held idols before God, computer games, school work, television. (And God just convicted my heart of eating into His time with me while blogging the previous sentence that i've got to turn it off and continue blogging the next day.) There were filthy sins that hindered the breakthru and always an lack of faith that God's love will still find me and pick me up. i guess each of us has his/her reasons but whatever that may be, we all ought to remember that we did not die on the cross for ourselves but Jesus did. So no point throwing a pity party over our lives but lets start looking at Jesus and His everlasting work on the cross.

Oh how we need a vision of the cross in our lives. A vision of the cross, a vision of God's love displayed. I'm not talking about any scene we saw in movies depicting Jesus on the cross, but a vision that God gives. Now you may say, "God never give me that vision wadd" or "Why God never give me this vision?". Why pin the fault on God? You know that you cant handle that vision. You know that your life wouldnt be the same anymore if you receive this vision. Your life won't belong to you and you can never live life the way you live it anymore. It'd be a life that is crucified with our Lord Jesus Christ.

But how glorious to live a life crucified! Only such lives can God get glory out of. Only such lives can God use to impact a dying generation. I want to live such a life for i have resolved that i do not want Jesus to die in vain ever in my life again.