New experience.

I should be doing work but i cant get myself into the mood especially i've not done my quiet time yet. Grr school work = /

Saturday was great. Aunty Ruth preached about building a strong foundation upon God's Word. It spoke alot to me because somehow i felt that God already taught me that and the sermon was like a revision to me. At the end of it i just felt committed again to continue to strive in God's Word.

Then it came to Lifegroup. The sharing was great as always, our internal response towards God and His unstoppable love. And then to worship. It was my first time and i felt that i screwed up alot. I kinda messed up big time on some parts because i'm not sure whether to die down or not. But the worst of all was that i kept forgetting to hold up the cords for Jerrold. I felt super guilty for that because he kept signaling to me and i kept forgetting again and again. At one point the music was off because of that. I don't know, even when it came for me to beckon the members to worship, i just felt so uneasy. Overall i felt kinda disappointed at myself even after Jeremy and Jerrold's comforting words.

I dont know. I became kinda down after that. Havta go home early to do some school work and was really glad that there was no one at home when i got back because it means early quiet time. I guess God saw how much disappointment i felt against myself and I was really glad that He pulled me thru it all(like He always does). I guess the most important thing He taught me once again was that it really isn't the result that matters but the journey i went thru. Sanctification, praying for songs, praying for a burden for the lifegroup, worship and praise. The Lord brought me through all that during that couple of weeks and i just felt that indeed it's the journey that really matters. Praise the Lord for this journey and this new experience =D