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Yes. I finally got back to reading books. I guess all of a sudden computer games just stopped amusing me. Probably God's helping me to redeem my time and yes i thank God for that. First off i'm finally done with Wai Yin's 3 books and all i can say is they're really great and helped heaps (no. i didn't read all 3 in 1 go. i just managed to kick myself into finishing the last one =D) I started with Rachel's Tears which was about a girl who died during the Columbine High School Shootings. Not just any other girl, but a girl who knew God so intimately that even at her last breadth, she did not deny that shes a Christian. Tells me what Christianity is, at its very basic, Love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, with all your strength.

The second book was about God's nature. It was wonderful timing because at then i was wondering what the holy Trinity is, lots of facts and truths that helped me understand what 0.000000000001% of who God truly is. But i guess we can never fathom all of God's ways so 0.0000000000001% is still quite a huge number =0

The third and last book which i've just finished reading bout a week ago was A Glimpse Into Glory, a biography of Kathryn Kulhman. It was simply amazing tho i must really admit the tone was kinda strong in some kind of way. But her healing ministry just simply amazed me. This book and the book i'm currently reading (Wigglesworth, the complete story) just made me feel how God could really work thru someone to bring such powerful spiritual manifestations to the people out there.

I dont know but it just makes me look at the life i'm living now. I cant even be constantly be on fire for God. It just keeps fluctuating up and down, up and down like a wave. Committing my life and trust in Him today and doubt Him the very next day, bahh just like the man who is like the wave and yes he should not think he will receive anything from the Lord. But still looking at all my weaknesses, God dosen't give up on me and still managed to use me in some small ways and i thank Him for that. I'm not satisfied with what i am at now, i guess the search for God's heart goes on, in His Words and Works. One more plate of self-discipline please!