Surrendering; Saving the world, one youth at a time.

i finally knew the reason why it was so hard for me to surrender. I wasn't hungry for God enough. I was too easily satisfied with what He had done and what i'm doing for Him. Indeed, i've hardened my heart, to the point that i dont realize that i need that hunger.

i guess i'm a man of hard tears. I just cant cry at my own will, and when i do, i must really thank God because it's always His Spirit moving me. I dont know, maybe there's something wrong with my tear ducts. It often hinders me, it makes me wonder if my heart was really that hardened that i cant even cry out. Oh how i wish that tears will come easy.

So my point of surrender was just plain declaration. No tears, no moans, no groans. Does that mean that it's not genuine? I dont care, because i left everything to faith. Faith in God that He would strengthen me in my convictions and faith in what God promised as He sees faithfulness growing in me as i stick to Him. Thank God really, that it's just as simple as this, no need for hoo-hahs.

29/3 is drawing near. God's gonna do something great! I dont know why but He impressed on me this coming youth evangelistic service. I'm really excited!

Lord, lead me to one (group of. (= ) youth(s) today, everyday, till 29th and beyond!