Deceit of the enemy

It's lifegroup meeting again and this week we're continuing on experiencing God as a church. We learnt more on God's love for us and what He has called us to do, which is to love one another earnestly from a pure heart. It's like cool! I keep learning bout that in this new season and really open my heart to more reflections. Everything was well until worship when my leader asked us to approach our accountability partner or anybody that we wanted to say thanks to. I didnt know why but i was stumped.

I suddenly felt so alone, as i open my eyes to look around me i saw all the other lifegroup members rejoicing and in prayer. I knew that from this moment i've let my guard down against the enemy. The enemy bombarded my with things that made my head so confused and soon i found myself crying. Words like, "did anyone ever gave a damn bout you?", "how can you be a blessing to them if they're not even your blessing?", "does anyone call you at all during your week to ask you how are you doing?", "you have nobody to confide in", "you are alone". The more these words rang out the more i couldn't focus and i found myself in the enemy's toying. Although i knew i was under spiritual attack, i just couldn't face up to the challenge because most of the time i found myself really alone in this walk with God (cept with the Holy Ghost and my leader).

The ordeal lasted really long even until dinner with the others and going home. I don't know but i just cried on my bed. I need to come to God. Praise the Lord, as i came into His refuge the enemy has no chance of touching me. He showed me that i existed in people's prayers and that simply was enough for me to break the enemy's deceptions! He also reminded me of being a blessing to others which is always better than receiving. Through this it just made me more determined to love my brothers more and i guess the enemy's just trying to stop me, not only he failed but i got stronger! Praise the Lord!