Have I been of good testimony?

Very often at the end of a day when i'm doing my quiet time, i'd ask God if i was a good testimony in His name. Have i cared enough for others? Have i shown love to people? Have my deeds and actions impacted anyone in a good way? Well, God would very often convict me of the things i did or the words that i've said which do not have a good impact on others. It's good, to see what you have done during the day flash past you and hear God's comments on them. But as convicted as i may be, very often i fall back to the same ways the next day. I guess its really time to break free from this cycle and seek His strength to really shine His light to the people around me in my family and school and cca.

Lol that sounded as if i was a bad testimony in wherever i go. Well, i dont use colourful languages nor bark at people or whatsoever, but is this enough to be a good testimony? How do you define being good in the sight of people? If pleasing people was so hard, then wouldnt pleasing someone perfect like God be even harder? But praise the Lord, He has enabled us to live blamelessly and pleasing His sight by giving something to us, which is GRACE. Grace enables us to pick ourselves up every single time we fall short of His glory but sometimes i guess it's over-emphasized. No matter how graceful and loving God is, He IS Holy and Righteous. If we continue to dwell in His grace and not seek repentance, wouldn't we be fooling ourselves and worst still, abusing God's grace?

Back on topic, just like the song "Spirit touch the church", theres a part, "I want to care for others like Jesus cares for me" I must strive to be a person who is just like that! I'm sure with the empowerment of God i'll be able to lead such a life that people may see Jesus in me.

like the city on the hill, i'll shine for You..