Here I Am, Lord Send Me.

"Woe is me, for I am ruined!
Because I am a man of unclean lips,
And I live among a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts."

Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had taken from the altar with tongs. He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sins is forgiven."

Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here I am. Lord send me!". (Isaiah 6:4a-8)

I'm far from perfect. I have issues that I have to deal with, struggles I have to go through and obstacles I need to overcome. But praise be to the Lord our God, our giver of grace, our well of strength, our fortress of love that keeps me going.

I'm cleansed. I found Him to be faithful and righteous to forgive me for my sins and iniquities. I know that there'd be a day that I'll have to stand before Him, fearing not for the things I've done because I know I've been forgiven, but what about the things that I should have done but did not?

I'm called. Not in dreams nor fancy visions, no loud booming voice nor clouds that suddenly form words. It's nothing mystical. It's just how much you believe what God says in His Word, "Go and make disciples of all nations and baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe what I have commanded you and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

I'm here. Send me. For all He has done, I'm willing to go. This life I have don't belong to me no more, I've lost my rights to plan out my life the way I want it to be. I don't know if I'd fail Him in the end but at least I would've tried.

"So here I am, Lord send me to the imperfect, that they may know that You have reconciled them to Yourself by the blood of Your Son just as it has been written in Your perfect Gospel."

(and here's a really meaningful song that i've heard.)